Leaning on God

Good morning! Kay, so I went to bed at 9:00 p.m. last night and I layed awake for about 2-3 and a half hours. I couldn't get to sleep for the life of me! I layed awake, laying in bed just staring out the window. Then I wake up at 5:00 this morning and went into the living room to watch t.v. I would of went back to sleep but I didn't feel well, plus it didn't really help that it was storming outside. But anyway, at about 6 or 7 this morning, I pulled out my bible and devotions book. This morning, I was looking for bible verses to write down and I came across a letter that my cousin had wrote me while he was in jail. I started to read through it and in the letter, he was comforting me about my break-up with my 8th grade boyfriend. In one part of the letter, Johnny Mac said "The valley sucks, Lexi. but once we're on the other side of the valley, we learn to be thankful for the journey." And then he gave me a bible verse, he told me "every time you write me about a problem in your life, I'm going to tell you what God says about it". Here is what the verse says "God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted." Matthew 5:4. I think its funny that after everything that's going on right now, as I am going through my bible, I happen to stumble upon a letter relating the same topic that is going on right now. Ya see, that is the way our god works. He will do just about anything to prove to you and everyone else in this world that he is in control. No matter what happens in life, God is there and he is never going to leave. "There are "friends" who destroy each other, but a real friend sticks closer than a brother." Proverbs 19:24. I don't know about anyone else, but I am very proud to stand up and yell at the top of my lungs that I believe in Christ! I grew up in church as a little girl, but as I got older we grew apart and stopped going. But I can say now, that I am happy that I started going young and then eventually stopped but still loved God, rather than grew up not knowing Jesus and just now finding out there really is a God. I rely on God for everything! I pray for fifteen to twenty minutes every night, I know that I can tell God anything and there is no judgment and I can trust him with everything! I was at the park with my cousin yesterday and we saw this little girl playing with her parents, she looked so free. She had no drama, no boyfriend to worry about, no pain..she looked like the happiest person in the world. I looked at her and it made me miss being that age. I miss being careless and not having a worry in the world! Now, careless means getting pregnant at the age of 16 and everybody is worrying because we have so many teenagers doing drugs and dying. Its hard to live a nice, peaceful life these days. All we can really do is lean on God and let him take care of everything. That is what I am doing at least. Well, thanks for reading! Have a wonderful day!