"This is gonna make us stronger, its gonna make forever longer..."

hello everybody. So, its been about two months since i have saw, talked, touched, kissed trent. And it is killing me! I hate it!! Its like a never ending game, never knowing when i will see trent next..it makes me sick. I just really miss him and I love him with all of my heart! He isnt a bad guy ya know? He is amazing! And even though he has hurt me a lot in the past year in a half..i have had my share of hurting him also. Looking back now, i don't even know why we spent so much time fighting and hurting each others feelings? After an hour or so of trent and I fighting my mom would say "will you two just please get along and quit bickering?!" and trent would say "angie, we arent bickering..we are arguing. it isn't really fighting, just disagreeing" lol. Today, my mom and I sat in her bedroom and watched some of trent and travis's youtube videos. I laughed so hard! I cried too..but it wasn't bad tears. It was more like "welcome back old trent. i have missed you so much!" whenever i watch those videos, i realize how much i miss the old trent, the trent he used to be. I miss him so much. I cry all the time and then i think to myself that me crying isnt bringing him home. I just wish none of this bad stuff would of ever happened. So many things have changed in just a couple of months. I am actually slowly losing contact with trent's family and I hate that more than ever. I hope that maybe sometime in the future they can forgive me for ever hurting trent. Because honestly, he is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I love him with all of my heart! He can make me smile just by looking at me. He can always make me laugh, and no matter what...i will never give up on trent. He is so important to me and I care for him a lot! He means so much to me and I never want to lose him. So i really hope he comes home soon. I love you trenton wade! never forget that.."never let go" i love you so much!!!